Tuesday, October 24, 2006
Third time's a charm.
My last two posts have been lost into the abyss on my computer. Who knows where they have gone. I just hope this one works!
"When what's left of you gets around to what's left to be gotten, what's left to be gotten won't be worth getting, whatever it is you've got left."
Friday I was offered a job -- and I accepted. After seconds thoughts, I thought about it the whole weekend, talked with Brian and decided that it wasn't for me. At first glance it seems like financially we'd be better off, but taking into consideration pet care, a dirty house, more stress & me already being a ticking time-bomb, I feel like I made the right choice. We've talked about things I want to do before we have children, while I have more time for myself & now Brian will be gone most nights, it's time I should use doing the things I've wished to do - for learning & being creative. I never have a problem finding things to do - but this time I don't have time constraints. I'm not obligated to anyone but myself on when or how things are done, because I am doing them for me. I am making a few plans & some lists and I've bought a journal to write again, to be my companion on these nights where I am experiencing color & beauty & learning. I write my lists so I will not forget, but I don't want to become so overwhelmed with what I want that I don't do any of it --- that inevitably happens to me.
I will write more on this later ... Blogger is acting up on me and I don't want to lose my post again.
"When what's left of you gets around to what's left to be gotten, what's left to be gotten won't be worth getting, whatever it is you've got left."
Friday I was offered a job -- and I accepted. After seconds thoughts, I thought about it the whole weekend, talked with Brian and decided that it wasn't for me. At first glance it seems like financially we'd be better off, but taking into consideration pet care, a dirty house, more stress & me already being a ticking time-bomb, I feel like I made the right choice. We've talked about things I want to do before we have children, while I have more time for myself & now Brian will be gone most nights, it's time I should use doing the things I've wished to do - for learning & being creative. I never have a problem finding things to do - but this time I don't have time constraints. I'm not obligated to anyone but myself on when or how things are done, because I am doing them for me. I am making a few plans & some lists and I've bought a journal to write again, to be my companion on these nights where I am experiencing color & beauty & learning. I write my lists so I will not forget, but I don't want to become so overwhelmed with what I want that I don't do any of it --- that inevitably happens to me.
I will write more on this later ... Blogger is acting up on me and I don't want to lose my post again.
# posted by Sary : 1:58 PM
